Averrous Saloom

When we try to run our computer, it has to run multiple program to deliver the display, the disk, the complex processing, and many thing else at the same time. We need to achieve this with processor core constraint, it can only process one program at a time. This problem bring us to process. To imagine process, I will simplify it as an identity of a running program. When program run, it will has additional information that bound with it, process store that in process code block. By making a running program have identity, we can manage them with scheduler. We can switch context without scared the system will forgot the state of the previous running process, because process store all state like the registers and last memory address.

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I am getting more responsibilities right now, either from organization, academic life, or companies that I applied internship to. The weirdest thing is, my energy level is better than when I don’t have any responsibilities. I approximate that 4/7 part of my week is filled with energy now, not like before which is only about 2/7, a 100% increment.

It seems like those responsibilities create a deep planted mental model in my head that I need to be energetic, makes the chemical in my brain and my body that induce focus and motivation be released. A mental model that I assume consist of if else statements, ‘if I dont show up, this people will not like me’, simply set of rules that is more than the one that I had when I was not having any responsibilities.

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We want something that make us feel good along the time. Like recently, I decide to erase Valorant, Twitter, and Paladins. But few hours later, I got the urge to download Valorant again. And I have justifications for it, as if I do it, it will be fine and all right. Thank god, I realize that downloading valorant again is just the same as repeating the old behavior, makes me dont be me anymore.

Thanks god.

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