I am getting more responsibilities right now, either from organization, academic life, or companies that I applied internship to. The weirdest thing is, my energy level is better than when I don’t have any responsibilities. I approximate that 4/7 part of my week is filled with energy now, not like before which is only about 2/7, a 100% increment.
It seems like those responsibilities create a deep planted mental model in my head that I need to be energetic, makes the chemical in my brain and my body that induce focus and motivation be released. A mental model that I assume consist of if else statements, ‘if I dont show up, this people will not like me’, simply set of rules that is more than the one that I had when I was not having any responsibilities.